Today I am thankful for an angel at the ball field, someone who said exactly what I wanted to say to encourage kindness and love when I couldn’t.  You know I am finally learning that I don’t always have to use my literal voice, and that sometimes it is actually  amazingly counter-productive.  I was given that beautiful lesson when I made a decision to just show up and be present in peace, love and joy.  I made a decision to not say the things I wanted to say, but instead to just enjoy my experience in the moment of the day.

I have to admit that I had woken up with a very out-of the-moment feeling of second guessing, ick in the pit of my stomach, restless being.  With great effort I pulled myself to the now moment and my day trekked along quite well.  And then I had an epiphany, and it was not in the kitchen; which is where most of my epiphanies occur.  It was driving in my car on the way to the final baseball game of the fall season for my 9 year old.  I was alternately doing some meditative chanting (my eyes were open by the way) and searching my mind for the correct words to say when I encountered a potentially stressful situation.  I should tell you that having a very analytical mind, I tend to do really well coming up with all the possible scenarios that could happen, and how I would respond.  I have noticed though, that sometimes when my human brain is being its very analytical self, it wants to take control.  And when it does, then I have lost my connection to the Divine.  And when I lose my connection to the Divine, then I lose it entirely.  After that I am just making decisions that seem like a good idea at the time, but usually come off as highly emotional, possibly high and mighty, and maybe even a bit whacky.

I noticed that as I pondered my various options and cleared my mind to listen to inspiration- I came up with nothing.  No response to make.  Just Nothing.  Then the idea that “I create the world I live in” rolled past my mind.  So as I examined that little notion,  I said to myself, “you know what, if I create the world I live in, then why would the heck would I create stress!  I can’t stand stress, so…I really don’t want to be concerned about this anymore.  So I don’t think I will be.”  And just like that, with an almost audible poof! — I left the analyzing behind and reached my destination feeling light and airy and actually joyous!  So, yesterday my only role was to shut off my mind, and be present for a game.

You know, sometimes a stranger can say things where people listen with their souls.  Hmmmm….I think I just realized that more often, I could allow the Divine strangers to be the healers, and I can just Be.

Peace, Love and Popsicles to you today!!!